Rachel Rants and raves

2009-11-25T06:51:00.000-08:00

the hospital is a depressing place.

2009-11-05T07:07:00.000-08:00

I feel unappreciated, and I don't think I'm unreasonable.

Maybe I should not have any expectations anymore.

2009-10-26T21:51:00.000-07:00

SOMEONE REINVIGORATE ME TO RUN AGAIN

2009-10-25T21:56:00.000-07:00

I need to motivation to run again!

Bah.

2009-10-24T04:45:00.000-07:00

New skin!

Unproductive day today.

Poot.

Hello, World!

2009-10-18T20:47:00.001-07:00

I shall not be beaten down by job application rejections.
I shall not.
I will not.
I cannot.

2009-08-30T09:59:00.000-07:00

Dear Ivan/ Transformer,

We all hope you'll be strong during this time. Just know that all your friends will always be here for you.

Love,
Rach.

2009-08-28T09:00:00.000-07:00

Kenn is on a lucky streak this month! I hope to get to play with the DSLR. :)

Xiao Hei Hei is a palm-sized black kitty! Frisky adorable little thing with no Mama, and eyes that make anyone go AWWWWW! Buncha girls found her at my estate.

Today, Cyn and I chatted a little bit about relationship issues on the way home, while a goth-lookalike stole glances at us. Sure, an indication of progression and direction is reassuring. However, does the absence of it signal the time to end a relationship, or should both parties wait it out, just a little longer? And what if a little longer, is seemingly an excuse to avoid the real question at hand, and 'a little longer' drags on to months, then years?

This is real, and it's making me ponder. I decided a long time ago to give Kenn and I 5 years maximum before we pause to talk about where we're headed towards. That is, of course, we do somehow manage to pull through to another 2-ish years. 5 years may be the saturation point, the deciding factor whether to stay for progression, or walk away from each other amicably. At the back of my mind, I hope he is the one, because I've gotten far too comfortable and familiar with the current situation. And yet, I restrain the urge to delve deeper and imagine the 'Could Haves" with the boy. I, of all people, know the dangers of hopes and expectations climbing too high, creating a bubble too perfect.

I am now leaving it to Fate.

2009-08-26T19:32:00.000-07:00

Marvin is an amazing emcee who's ever so spontaneous, and he makes everyone, myself included, burst into laughter with his hilarity. Working with him in MarkeTHINK has been an awesome experience, together with having the honor of emcee-ing with him. I am thankful. :)

Jieying is one of the best working partners I can ever hope to have! We think on the same page, and shes always so cheerful! I have no idea how she does it! When she laughs, I bet everyone else will break into smiles. Again, I am ever so thankful. :)

MarkeTHINK rocks.

2009-08-20T07:57:00.000-07:00

A sweet, funny, silly lady whose gorgeous smile still makes hearts melt.

At the very least, I still have 1 picture with you.

I know not the reasons, but just hope you'll be happier wherever you are, laughing with angels.

Yes, I hope you are. Rest well, dearest. I'll be thinking of you.

2009-08-08T07:39:00.000-07:00

Please don't make me feel tired to feel anymore.

2009-08-03T22:04:00.000-07:00

As I sit at Fujitsu Premium Care Centre, regretting my procrastination in not backing up all my documents earlier when my dad nagged me to, I started to surf the net. Decided to check my tag board, and I realise how boring my blog has become! Emo stuff all over the shop! *cringe*

Just when I thought I ain't got no readers left, I peeped at my tag board, found my lovelies leaving notes there, and have thus decided to put visuals up as mini illustrations of my life during the past 4 months or so.

At Wei & Droo's party in May:

Kenn and I with a lovely backdrop of Singapore's night scene, from 33 stories above.

My loves! Farand, myself, Cyn Baby, Weiiii. =)

Secondary school mates. Liwei, Ruiqi the birthday babe, myself, Liyuan =). June 28th 09.

Latest outing! Kailing Bestie, Cyn Baby, myself, B2! Woo. 3rd August 09.

Haha. VJ Choir shot at Caroline's birthday at HortPark =). Miss them so, miss singing. 31st July 09.

Oh my my! Spent 4 hours at school doing up storyboards on glass panels using Post-Its! Publicity stunt for our upcoming competition. Go MarkeTHINK! =)

TruEye mass launch at Mount Faber with Johnson & Johnson VIsion Care Singapore Team. 4 months flew by oh so quickly! 8th July 2009.

And then I realise, life is good.

2009-07-28T09:31:00.001-07:00

I had an awesome time with Ivan, Droo, Wei, Cyn tonight. I haven't laughed so hard in a while. Farand Farand, come home sooooooon!

And yet, why do I have an odd sinking feeling that I cannot get rid off?

2009-07-23T09:22:00.000-07:00

Today, I spent the day FYP-ing, and an hour at Wei's.

I wish I had Cyn's independence sometimes. Just a little will do.

2009-07-13T07:09:00.000-07:00

I am too disappointed for words.

This may not last very long.

2009-07-12T08:21:00.000-07:00

I have my laptop fixed whee! =)

Today, Kenn, Sally, Mr. Lee and I had awesome dinner at Shin Kushiya. It was meant to be a o5S62 class outing, that ended up with only 4 of us. Had a great time catching up with Sally and Mr. Lee, though =). Still, it felt odd not having Roach, Krit & Jo around to crack up the atmosphere even more.

PA ending in 8 working days! Oozing in excitement I am.

On a sidenote, I ought to be prepared for the worst. Sucks to do so, but I know I should.

Oh wells.

2009-07-03T01:57:00.001-07:00

fuck it.

2009-07-02T01:42:00.000-07:00

Looking at Roach's blog, filled with UCLA photos and upcoming road trips announcements, I can't help feeling a little envious. Yes, I know perfectly well I've had my chance for 5 months, and shouldn't have odd feelings of green envy.

I guess I miss stepping out into the cool weather during Fall, to walk or jog around campus without breaking into beads of perspiration, to watch the leaves turn a warm orange as winter looms near, to people-watch while sipping on mug of piping hot coffee, and to have the best gyms right smack around the corner, to bum around with Kailing every day as we squeal in delight at our online purchases.

Each day I'm counting down to when work/internship ends, and yet, it's ironic how this will inevitably lead to graduation day, where I will (by hook or by crook) be stuck with a real job whether I like it or not.

Suddenly, I can't quite see the light at the end of the tunnel.

2009-06-26T01:34:00.000-07:00

I need to air my feet, NOW.

TGIF whoot.

2009-06-26T01:29:00.001-07:00

The passing of an Era.

You will forever be remembered, MJ.

2009-06-21T19:44:00.001-07:00

22 more work days left!!! awesomeness.

2009-06-17T23:09:00.000-07:00

Today, I feel old, jiggly, tired.

2009-06-17T21:58:00.000-07:00

Argh. Jiggle Jiggle

2009-06-03T17:44:00.000-07:00

And so, as per requested by the boss, I arrived at 8.10am at the office and was not surprised that he has not arrived yet! (time check: 0845hours) I have spent the time bumming around and checking out blogs/news/emails, waiting for him to arrive. Nyeh I shouldnt be complaining since he left the office at 10.30pm, was terribly jetlagged, and has NS reservice training for half a day today.

Hope Han will be doing better after the operation. I wish for him to be able to head back to school again.

Jamming later after work. Not realllyyy looking forward to performing though. hmmm.

2009-05-26T01:41:00.000-07:00

Today Daddy went back to work in China. Had this empty feeling down in my gut as I walked out of the house. I miss him.

Work gets interesting sometimes, but reverts back to much mundane boredom every now and then. Wonder how everyone's internship is going?

Whee am meeting Kenn later. =)

2009-05-21T17:43:00.000-07:00

PULL MY CGPA PLEASE

2009-05-14T01:17:00.001-07:00

just realised I got cheated into the job.

I'm a Professional Affairs Intern.

Not the Marketing Intern I was expecting. Grrrr.

2009-05-08T08:39:00.001-07:00

damn it.

2009-05-05T20:12:00.000-07:00

Ryan Seacrest's Twitter has been hacked into!!

Work work
Work Away
In the Gloomy rain.

2009-05-01T10:52:00.000-07:00

Isn't it normal to feel uneasy about certain girls who are close to your boyfriend?

I have this nagging feeling about one girl and I can't seem to shake it off.

Oh well. What will be, will be.

2009-04-28T07:31:00.000-07:00

It's gonna be an uber long day at work tomorrow. Sai Kang Warrior.
Why does the other intern have his own J&J email add and I have to use my NTU one? Grrr. Hope YenLing comes soon and I would have proper company. On a side note, Cheryl dear did lasik on her eyes today!! Scary thought. Will be emcee with Marvin for NBS Welcome Day. Exciting news!

Everyone should sign up for Twitter! Dear Twitter, please allow activation of Singapore mobile lines for us loyal twitter fans to tweet.

I have the uneasiest feeling ever. Must be the recession, examination results anxiety, dreading work, swine flu, job insecurities.

mmmmm.

Rachel, out!

2009-04-08T04:39:00.001-07:00

nargh stuck at work

2009-04-08T00:27:00.000-07:00

The boss is away and have left me with very little/easy to complete tasks. He is now uncontactable, and I shall now be paid to do some studying. Hur Hur. Presentations/projects and all that jazz are all over! FINALLY!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to Mum & Dad tomorrow!

I secretly don't want to end up with a job that has the least challenges ever. How dreadful. Then again, what if I don't even end up with a job? Boo.

2009-03-13T09:25:00.000-07:00

I hope I ain't spreading myself too thinly now till the end of April!

This blog seems dead.

2009-01-25T05:49:00.000-08:00

Is mahjong that fun?

I cannot comprehend. Never can, never will.

2009-01-07T01:53:00.000-08:00

so it's the first week of school, but it feels like its taking forever. Especially the boring 4-hr long seminars. For the 1st time today, an elective lecture ended early, from a 3-hr one to a half-hr one. Sad thing was I was in the wrong LT for 2 mins. Up side is I made a new friend and project mate.

1st week and I already have a project meeting for an elective scheduled for tomorrow. What have I gotten myself into!

2009-01-05T18:59:00.000-08:00

AND RACHEL IS BACCKKK!

Albeit the sweltering weather, everything's good. Meeting up with friends, quality time with Kenn, Bestie and Cyn Baby, Wei's party, making new friends like Yi Ling, Louis... all's awesome!

Am bumming in the library at 11am cos' I didnt know 8.30am class got postponed to next week, so I shall wait for the next class at 2.30pm. Gross.

Made 2 new exchange-student friends. Nicole's from Australia, been studying in M'sia for quite some time. Yvonne's from Mexico! Been wanting to go Mexico and South America for some time now.

I dread school. Having to mug hard and the upcoming projects are making me weary and dreary. On the up side, Kenn and I are going Shin Kushiya for our 26th tonight!

HAPPY 26TH, BABY!! =)

2008-12-21T08:44:00.000-08:00

I went for a quick run this morning and then proceeded to take a bath in Bestie's shower.
With my semi-wet hair, I stepped out of Sherman Hall to have my daily cuppa Soy Green Tea Latte. When I stepped into Starbucks, ran my fingers through my hair, I realized the wet portions froze and I had sticking-out broom-like hair. Welcome to -32 degrees celcius in Illinois!

2008-12-20T18:00:00.000-08:00

Sc, XY, Lindy have all taken the MegaBus to head to SC's friend's place to dump their luggage, before heading to NYC. It's gonna be freezing there! Poor SC must feel horrid leaving the Europeans.

Bestie had concussed after reading Cosmopolitan. I shall read my magazines to kill time too. =P Adios!

2008-12-19T09:45:00.000-08:00

Exams are overrrr! haha Bestie and I completed the test in like 15 mins and left whee. Hope my mummy's flu will get tons better =(.

2008-12-17T15:16:00.000-08:00

I have moved over to Sherman!! I missed hanging with Bestie and Linds and bumming around with them today was uber amazing =). Kailing is sleeping now, with ipod plugged to her ears. Linds is studying for her final paper due in 1 hr... she doesnt need to cos' shes smart but shes a perfectionist =P. I am jealous that everyone has their papers done before Bestie and I. Pffftt.

Today one of the Starbucks Baristas made me a fabulous cuppa Extra Hot Grande Green Tea Latte with extra matcha powder, no melon syrup, no water but replaced with Soy milk. I tell you, I have spent 4 months observing the Starbucks baristas make the coffees so often, I swear I'll be perfect working as one. Hoping the Siglap baristas won't glare me down when I order my special drink when Im back in MotherLand.

I am too excited to sleep at nights. But I try to sleep early so the next day will come quickly heehee.

2008-12-16T14:21:00.000-08:00

hello world.

I have experienced near-death experiences twice in my life.

One. While snorkelling in deep-sea-choppy-waters in Miami.

Two. While waiting for the freaking bus in the fucking cold weather of -20 degrees celcius. My fingers were purple and on the verge of dropping off. So were the toes.

AHMAHGAWD KILL ME NOW

2008-12-16T08:57:00.000-08:00

it is snowing again!! why why why does it always have to snow!? It is so annoying to have slippery pavements, and having to skate and slide across the roads to test if they are icy or walkable like normal cement floors. It is now -15 degrees celcius and I am blogging in Starbucks, with absolutely no motivation to start studying.

Dang you, snowy flurry weather!! *curses*

I hope no snow flakes will get into my eyes later, like they always do. Cannot wait to perspire in sunny Singapore again.

2008-12-15T12:59:00.000-08:00

1 down, last one to go on Friday! Im packed and all rady to move to Sherman to bunk with my Bestie and Linds!

Yiling, Saiying, Meiling have been wonderful housemates, and I would never change living elsewhere for the world, if I had the chance to choose again of course. Albeit the house being far away from campus itself, the warm cosy feeling of having our own little house for 4+ months rocked.

Meiling's dad has flown off to Singapore this morning. To tell you the truth, the house seems emptier without his random comments, which seem to crack himself up all the time. He's my saviour for helping me lug my heavy heavy bag to MotherLand.

Less than a month away to Home Sweet Home,
Less than a month away to hug my mum,
Less than a month away to talk to my sweet Sis again,
Less than a month to Skype my Dad freely,
Less than a month away to take a bus to meet my baby boy anytime, any day,
Less than a month away to bum around with Cyn, Farand, Wei, ICC peeps, other lovelies,
Less than a month away to sleep in my new bed, in my new room, in that new apartment for the very first time EVER!

2008-12-11T11:34:00.000-08:00

Hello world. =)

The exchange program is coming to an end... I had lots of fun here in the US of A, loved the weather when it was non-snowy, hung out with cool people, fell in love with Kailing. Places I visited were NYC, Miami, Orlando, Chicago... Too sweet.

Can't believe 4+ months flew by so fast, but every single minute some part of me wished I were back home in sweltering sunny Singapore. Im a sucker for family and company. USA's fun, but it's time to go home.

Mummy, Jie, Daddy, Kenn, Cyn, Farand, Wei, Roach, Kkor, Chen Chung, all ICC peeps. Wait and see. =)

2008-12-02T00:51:00.000-08:00

kenn keeps disappearing on me while i wait for his sms replies & msn online appearance.

I shant wait or sms him anymore

2008-12-01T09:24:00.000-08:00

So many papers, project presentations, meetings!!! *war cry*

On a happier note, Imma go home soooooon =)

2008-11-30T12:46:00.000-08:00

Today, I banged my toe on Bestie's humongous luggage bag that was lying sadly on the floor, and realised half my toe nail detached itself from my pudgy big toe flesh. Lindy was grossed out, kailing couldnt stop squealing and kept shouting about her desire to retch... this was followed by Papa Xiong's rush down to the room to join in the commotion.

There I sat holding my foot, inspecting my big toe, and demanding widly to Zong about what am I to do with the black detached toe nail of mine. While my 2 lovely friends kept squealing away, Zong calmly suggested remedies, followed by my decision to cut half the nail off so it wouldnt protrude outwards/ upwards. I can still go running like that! Whoopdeedo.

What a day. Kailing's cooking rocks. Zong has introduced me to a newly-improved fav of mine: Starbuck's Green Tea Latte, no melon syrup, extra matcha powder. I am now at Starbucks and sipping on that, IT IS LOVE!

2008-11-30T08:59:00.001-08:00

Today, Bestie woke me up and excitedly ordered me to look out my window. And there it was, the most breath-taking sight in my life, with white snow covering every inch of my backyard, every tree branch, even on the bins, which were standing there in cold solitude.

Haha and I stepped out of the house to head to SHerman for a gym session with Zong, and smiled happily to myself cos' it looked as if I just stepped into a movie scene and the snow-covered trees, pathways, grass patches, roads, cars, were oh too surreal.

But I am annoyed at the fact that snow is not like cotton and they melt horribly into slippery puddles of water. Me, having no car, needed to walk to a bus stop 10 mins away.Goodness Gracious, the walk seemed like an hour, while I desperately tried to fit my footsteps on snow patches into those that had been trodded on before. I nearly slipped and died a million times over.

Conclusion? These snowy scenes are awesome to gasp and go ga-ga over, but not nice to walk on, or make manual paths out of. I rather stay inside, where it is warm and fuzzy, have a cuppa hot chocolate or 2, and admire the picturesque scenery afar. I do not like to play snowball fights, or build a snowman, unless I am heavily armoured in waterproof fabrics.

Oh no. I sound like my mummy.

I MISS YOU MUMMY!

2008-11-29T18:57:00.000-08:00

NYC was a blast... great city, great company, awesome in every single way =). Best trip I had ever.

On a side note, I hope my mummy's will be fine soon.

Happy Birthday, Grandma!

2008-11-19T21:28:00.000-08:00

I abhor tests, exams, anything close to deciding whether i pass or fail my subjects here. Graaaa!
Favorite class: SPCM 113 because of the funny, outspoken classmates, because I get to hide behind them and doodle/space out and don't even bother listening because EVERYTHING discussed is lifted off the amazing textbook.

AHMAHGAWD I have ballooned to the size of a whale. Whatever happened to the plan of losing weight?! *stabs self*

I am disgruntled now.

2008-11-15T20:04:00.000-08:00

I wanna hug my Mum and Dad!

Kenn, I miss you heaps.

2008-11-15T19:07:00.001-08:00

Today, it was predicted by trusty-ole' weather forecasts that it will rain flurries. Yes, Flurries.
Sounds oh too cute.
They are snow flakes formed from 1/10 the size of a normal Singapore raindrop. Bestie and I were dressed for the exciting little occasion, because flurries are, well, fun and cute to be surrounded by! =) We got our gloves and big fluffy coats piled on top of us, and did catch a few flurry specks zip past our eyes. Before I knew it, Kailing shouted, "OW!" I happily blamed her painful predicament on her big eyes, huge enough to catch rain drops. This was not till I felt what seemed like pebbles smacking my cheeks and coat, did I realise it was raining mini ice. I quote Kailing, "It ICED today!"

So we had a hella time laughing before we sat down for a fantastic lip-smacking sushi dinner. Bestie seems happy today and not in pain anymore. Maybe it was because of her Ralph Lauren sunglasses that she got for less than $90USD.

Shao Chun, I am jealous you are frolicking with Giogio in San Francisco, half-nakey on the grass, while the rest of us are freezing our asses off in Champaign.

I love hanging out with my Bestie =D.

But I miss everyone back in Singapore too much.

I will be back sooooooon =)

2008-11-10T23:04:00.000-08:00

Today, I am sad.

I knew people would probably get used to not having me around.

But of all people,

You?

Love

2008-11-06T10:15:00.000-08:00

Love.

Now & Forever.

I love these people,

Always.

2008-11-05T11:21:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 2ND YEAR, KENN! Thanks for tolerating my tantrums, for loving me, for being there, for being the most retarded, the silliest, craziest, funniest, sexiest, hottest boy whom I so love and adore =).

South Park Kenn

Manga Kee wen =)

Us in 2008

Us in 2007

Happy 24th and counting, baby! I love you to bits.

just cos', You belong to me.

2008-11-02T08:04:00.000-08:00

So! Halloween came and went, no gunshot threats, zilch.
Boring me decided to stay in with my Bestie, and bumming around was cool =P.
Milwaukee didn't happen, and left. Zong, Bestie and I decided to go down to Borders, where I got awesome DVDs (I love!) and aromatic Green Tea Latte, popped by Meijers to sweep out cheAP candies (after-Halloween mega candy sale!) , caught a heart-wrenching,tear-jerking, applause-worthy Angelina Jolie/Clint Eastwood film --> The Changeling. It truly is worth more than what I paid for, with Bestie and I sobbing our guts out. I apologise to the people around me who thought my squeals and snorts were oh-too-noisy!
Then we had expensive Jap food at Ko Fusion on the way home, with uncalled-for stabbing glances from waitresses and patronisers at 3 of our gargantuan Meijers tak glam shopping bags. Hur hur.

Daylight Saving kicked in and now, Illinois is officially 14 hrs behind my lovely Singapore!

I realise it's sometimes not the places you go to that make one really happy and satisfied, it's the awesome company you hang out with which makes all the difference. Now, I cannot wait for the 3 of us to hang out at New York City!!

Another step closer to heading homeee. Awesomeness in its highest form!

2008-10-22T09:28:00.000-07:00

MOONSTRUCK CAFE IS CLOSED PERMANENTLY FOR GOD-KNOWS-WHAT-REASON!!!

I am quite horrified.

*twitches and spasms*

Morning highs.

2008-10-22T06:49:00.000-07:00

Today, Mei and I did the craziest thing. Heading to gym at 6.45am, at 5 degrees outside. It was a good workout and awesome catching up with her =). Then we had random cheese, bacon, egg wrapped in soft fluffy crossiant from a truck outside the Chem building, walking and eating. I swore our hands were numb when we reached the Business Quad.

Off to do some work now!

Lalala.

2008-10-21T09:45:00.001-07:00

I have never, ever encountered an online confrontation. My Bestie was the bravest to lead the whole convo on her own, while I being the useless one, watched in horror, agony. It was basically, a verbal warzone drizzled with much bloodshed via the Internet.

Final thoughts: Like what SC said, Imma do what I want, and what makes me happy for the next 3 months, and head back to Singapore knowing that I had the time of my life in U.S of A. No point feeling guilty, sad, heartbroken, disappointed, burnt. =)

To Cyn: Thank you lovely for your sweet entry on your blog.. You just made my day =). I miss you to the point that I wished I could hug you last night and just bawl my eyes out.

I havent laughed with Cyn and Ah Fat and Lau and CC in ages.

I havent seen or touched Kenn in forever.

But I shall be happy =).

2008-10-20T14:06:00.000-07:00

Today I spent an hour trying to log onto wireless internet at Moonstruck, and am feeling particularly annoyed.

Currently hooked onto the song Single by New Kids on the Block & Ne-yo! They are awesome in the music video *swoons*.

Now, it looks gloomy outside. Please don't let it rain, or Imma be a wet duck flopping around in cold.

Yesterday, Bestie and I were/are disappointed and heartbroken by the people around us. Illinois is making my heart harden. Okay, not Illinois. Just... people.
In the beginning, I couldn't fathom why people can be full of complexities, so multi-faceted, so... repulsive. I'm smirking at the cafe, and concluding that that's the way life is. Fate probably has some way of hitting me in the head to wake me up, to remind me not be so giving to anyone, everyone, anymore. Bestie and I are too tired of disappointments.

2 girls in front of me, giggling about their boyfriends and thinking aloud about marriages for the past 2 hours, and how Genesis, God, play a part & what not. Part of me's shaking my head and scoffing at their disillusionment about getting married early, not having enough money, them being giddy, head over heels in love with their boyfriends. Being together with your boy for 2 years does not mean it's more than enough dating time = perfect timing to get married.

Oh my, when did I become a cynic.

I think, in a time not too long ago, I still believed in romance, flowers, marriage, happiness, flying cupid hearts. Well, Kailing and JJ still made me believe sweet, giddy love still exists =). I am happy with Kenn, but we arent as mushy, lovey-dovey as Bestie and her boy, or Cyn and Wei.

I can't wait to go home. Still. After 2 months. I want to be able to be nice and giving, and loving to all my friends and family like I'm used to, and not get smacked in the face by ugly sights & to be used by people.

Oh well. Shopping for people earlier just made me a wee bit happier. =)

2008-10-18T12:23:00.001-07:00

I conclude that I love stay-overs at Bestie's room. Chatting with Lindy, Awyong, Kailing, made me miss Miami, when all 5 girls bummed around and laughed endlessly on our bunk beds.

Hanging out with Zr, Shao Chun, Ling and Awyong at Moonstruck after Death Cab, reminiscing about Tetris, Pokemon, Power Rangers, Star Search, Tamagotchis... We laughed so hard I swore our sides ached.

Not seeing Kailing today feels uber weird. Like how not seeing Cyn for 1 day last year, made me feel kinda empty inside.

I don't think I'll ever regret coming over to U of I. =)

2008-10-14T14:22:00.000-07:00

Today, I had 2 small lattes from Espresso Royale, and spent a good 25minutes defaecating in the loo. It was a stomach-churning, loud-farting period of time that I am not proud skipping lesson for.

I still love coffee though.

Imma have a hard time lugging back all my stuff back to Singapore.

Sleepy I am.

2008-10-10T23:42:00.001-07:00

And now,
I am feeling quite tired of everything around me.
People, their actions, feelings, masks, chatter.

Irksome.

Cyn, Kenn, Jie, Farand.

Wherefore art thou?

2008-10-10T21:18:00.000-07:00

Last night, when Kenn initiated talking to me online, and i saw the words "I miss you" on the screen, I secretly melted into a muddle of Rachel-goo. Missing everything about him. Morning cycles along East Coast Park to Carl's Junior for awesome breakfast, watching funny videos on his desktop, taking 36 bus to catch movies at Cathay, and just gazing into that handsome face. The simplest, most mundane things in life, can ignite a warm blissful glow in our hearts.

Chatted with Cynthia online, and wish I were next to her, so our secret withdrawal symptoms that are currently smacking us into loner-hood, will--> BEGONE! Wei is right, being away from Cyn Baby, the one person whom I have spent a year loving, learning from, laughing with, listening to, doting on, hanging out in school with, is affecting me quite a bit. I miss you tons, Cyn baby!

I wish I could be at Tekong to see my male self off to the hard throes of NS life. It is only the beginning for him, and I wish him all the best! Missing you to death too, Farand!

Every day, I thank Goddess of Mercy for bringing Bestie and I together on this trip. Albeit being in the same Group in NBS, and her roomie being Cyn's B2, I never knew her until now. Every day, the same responses we express, the exact timing of our observations that come out of our mouths, the same look we give each other when we feel strongly towards certain people and actions... Makes me wonder how fate and serendipity synergise together, and allow people to be intertwined in one another's lives so suddenly, so coincidentally; Somehow pick out the right set of individuals to meet, let them click with much ease, and then cause them to be in utter awe at new-found similiarities of one another. Even though we have so much fun every day, and utter the same words, adore the same pretty things which catch our eyes first, predict each other's thoughts, I can never have enough of you, Kailing! =)

I am thankful that I've made an awesome friend through Meiling. Again, if fate weren't at work in instigating me to go along with Mei and fetch you from Folletts in the wee hours of the morning 2 months ago, things may be very different now. Thank you for your teas, the free rides, for listening to my rants and complaints here!

Today, I spoke to more people (Jen and Christina) and like them alot! Shopping at Coach outlet, savoring frozen cheesecake topped with chocolate layer, Miracle perfume set, books, calendars reaffirmed my need for retail therapy to get away from monotony of life. My luggage is now filled up with U.S purchases! Awesomeness. Apple picking & Chicago musical tomorrow; Death Cab for cutie on Sunday. HOU HAPS! =)

2008-10-02T16:17:00.000-07:00

My new pretty checkered shoes caused the back of my feet to BLEED! I am in pain and sulky, heartbroken, and have to live with a blood-soaked pair of shoes. Tests today were not easy either! Oh well. I love hanging out with Yiling and bestie, chatting about our favorite foods, where we should hang out when we reach Singapore again, laugh at anything, everything under the chilly winds/non-existent sun here.

Chicago this weekend! Awesome stuff! =)

2008-09-28T17:20:00.000-07:00

Today, I have spent the whole day at Moonstruck again. It is now and forever, my favorite people-watching/studying/stoning/coffee-loving place in Urbana-Champaign.

Dearest Farand's 'last' day at work today and i heard from Jonnie he got wasted! But I Skyped him and he looked perfectly alright! Wish I could be there to join in the awesome, crazy fun! How I miss Cass, Cyn, Blues, Darren, Far, Jonnie.

Sis and cousins went to F1 racing. Am uber happy that they all seem to be having the time of their lives, but there's this nagging soreness jabbing at my heart, screaming and highlighting my absence from Singapore.

I remember my Daddy asking me if I could convert my degree to an overseas one, and he claimed that he has the financial ability to fund my education. Albeit job opportunities abroad are abundant and full of awesome prospects compared to teeny tiny Singapore, I have zilch courage to be away from all my lovelies for a good 3-4 years. I fear my loves forgetting and moving on with their lives without me, fear change in itself, fear the loss of familiarity, fear risks. All these basically robbed me of any chances to be a high-flyer (like so many here, vying desperately to grab abit of that delicious juicy pie), because I adore simplicity.

To wake up in the morning and know my family will be somewhere in my new house during the weekends,
To know the weather will be non-erratic for forever in Singapore,
To be able to drop by my favorite ice cream shop any time, any day, any moment,
To hold Kenn's hands and hear his voice whenever I yearn to,
To grab coffees and tete-a-tete sessions with Cyn, Wei, Farand,
To feel sane in dealing with and basking in real, genuine, non-backstabbing/manipulative relationships with my lovelies...

If only the scenery in Singapore were like that of Urbana's, then life, would be perfect.

However the case, I do not regret coming over to U of I, where i know I've made friends with amazing people like Kailing, who is my new-found bestie here. The sweetest thing/wifey who somehow randomly spouts the same responses/nonsense as I do, the lady who has the most wonderful heart ever. Zhen Hao, whom I am oh-so grateful to, when I'm in need of a ride at night, need someone to complain to about my rough days, and for making my sore throat better with teas. I heart all you guys! =)

2008-09-18T07:48:00.000-07:00

I feel the urge to do more shopping, but Imma be too broke if I continue doing that the way I do.

Im starting to enjoy the mundane life in UIUC, with pretty houses accompanying me on my walk home, with aromatic coffee to warm my cold hands and awaken my sleepy soul, the perfect breeze grazing past my cheeks in the afternoons this season, people-watching at Moonstruck Chocolate Cafe with maple leaves turning brown in the background..

And these little things in life can only last before hell week starts.

I wish all my lovelies back home could join me here.

2008-09-16T07:37:00.001-07:00

Zomg Hell week starts the week of my birthday. Countless tests, assignments, presentations. Why Why Why!!
The other day Kailing and I walked past a squirrel, at close proximity, which isnt normal cos' em' little furry things dash off the moment they sense a human being breathe within 1 mile radius of their tails or something. So, this teeny animal was oblivious to our presence, happily gorging itself on some weird nut in its paw. Maybe its squirrel senses tingled, and before we knew it, it dashed toward the direction of a tree, smashed its head right into it, BOUNDED OFF the trunk, picked itself up at lightning speed, and ran for dear life in the opposite direction. HAHA. Stupid squirrel. Kailing wifey berated me for laughing for a good 5 minutes. Teeheehee.

I adore hanging out in coffeehouses while studying, especially at MoonStruck Chocolate cafe 2nd level, where I get to sit beside the biggest glass window ever, overlooking random passer-bys. Oh How I miss people-watching at Siglap's Starbucks, and chatting with them familiar, friendly baristas!

On a side note, the world is going crazy with Merrill Lynch and AIG declaring bankruptcy. Narghhh.

Alriteys, off to class now!

2008-09-14T18:45:00.000-07:00

Haha. Everthing Must Order.

Suddenly, being in a relationship seems disappointing.

2008-09-11T07:34:00.001-07:00

Am sitting in the library waiting for my next class, using this bit of precious time to do up an entry since I don't seem to have time for that, or anything else for that matter, anymore!

School has been busy, tons of readings to catch up on everyday. Whoever said studying in America is relaxing, is obviously lying! College kids here seem ever-so-prepared for every class they go to. I am very much still surprised.

Weather is erratic, ranging from as low as 8 degrees to 17 degrees in the day. At nights, everywhere plunges into icy darkness, where chilly sharp bits of abrupt cold winds attack your bare skin. Meh. Afternoon breezes and morning runs here are awesome, though! =)

In Urbana, it is quaint, and I love it. Pretty houses like those in Wisteria Lane, friendly people who stop their cars anywhere just to let pedestrians cross a teeny road, and all that jazz. Was pleasantly surprised when I went jogging last weekend in the morning, and found lazy mama cows bumming around in their little pen on my right. Further down, baby cows were stuffing their little faces with their feed. (meant to irritate farand): AWWWW, so preciousss!

Haven't been able to get through to Kenn's phone lately =( Im still missing every single person back home!!

Alriteys, till next time!

2008-09-07T14:39:00.000-07:00

I cannot wait for New York trip to arrive! Manhattan city especially.

Yiling decided to drag me to Canopy Club, together with Dickson and Eugene at midnight this morning. It was packed, and had horrid music, and lots of asian girls grinding boys. Dry humping included. I was uber shocked, by the place and culture were eye-openers. I officially conclude that clubbing ain't mah thang one bit. --> farand, I am imitating your accent! =)

Wish I could be back in Singapore to celebrate birthdays with my sis, mum, dad and kenn. Oh well, life moves on back home, and in U.S of A!

2008-09-05T19:07:00.000-07:00

zomg ive spent a bomb on shopping for myself, and have gotten so many other goodies for everyone else. The list goes on though. Each present is personally handpicked by me and those of you out there who will get some, should be super honored!

My pocket's gonna have a burnt hole.

Tomorrow, more shopping at Marketplace and Walmart. Cannot wait for New York, which means one step towards going home sooooon!

2008-08-27T18:58:00.001-07:00

Today's the 3rd day of school. I officially love Mondays, Wed and Fridays --> classes end at 10.50am haha. Am still trying to get myself into the schooling mood. My brain is in retardation mode and refuses to believe that holidays are over.

Im falling sick. Thanks to sharing food and constant contact with my housemates, Meling and Yiling. *sniffles*

Still counting down, I am. Till, next time!

2008-08-26T21:05:00.000-07:00

Everyday when I do my run on the treadmill, and my mp3 plays, I think of everyone back home a little bit more.

When Heartbreaker plays, Cassandra's silly laughter pops into my mind, and her silly antics, and our snowball session at ICC.

When Lifehouse songs and Cao Ge songs play, I remember Blue's MAKAN BABI, that horrid string of Hokkien vulgarities he spouts randomly, that tiny bike he always rides, and that cute half-tied hair look.

When Damaged plays, Farand and his jiggly dance moves, dramatic Fillipino,Black, Stitch, Hong Kong, British accents flood my mind, and I smile.

Then BounCy smack smack's next on the shuffling list, and Jeremy's and Blue's harmonic and irritating Gregorian chant-like voices warm my heart (strangely).

Then my lovely Cynthia and that sweet smile, that chirpy voice rings with familiarity at the back of my mind, that jumpy excited look on her face when she feels passionate about something is so endearing. I miss how we are able to know what's on each other's minds oh so often!

Then I remember, Darren's Darlie toothpaste-smile, crazy-fast yellow flashy car, and that familiar random line, "WHO GIVES!".

Jonathan and his birdie, his child-like laughter, and his constant excitement for MUAY THAI. haha I miss them so much. Then I think of Xiwei and the precious times Ive spent hanging with him, and Cyn and farand. Few but nevertheless, too awesome moments bumming and laughing together. I even miss Ivan's random statements, which always make me laugh.

Then slowly, I remember my mum's cute laugh, her constant naggings, and I long to massage her aching back again. My endearing Dad who is now in Japan- I miss his little lectures on the Business World and tips on how to lead a better life in the future. My lovely sister, whom I love the most, the one who nagged me continually to prepare for my 5 month stint in U.S. I miss the way she gets excited about an issue and raises her voice, and speed of speech, unknowingly. Adorable, please!

And during my lonely 40-min walk to my classrooms, my ipod plays Look After you by The Fray, and my heart burns for my baby so much more. I miss him terribly, and army robs me of chances to skype him in the afternoon. Our important dates to come, he will not be physically beside me. When I'm feeling cold at nights, or need a hug to remind of that fuzzy feeling of familiarity, I wish you were here, Kenn. You encouraged me to go for this trip, and I thank you for your understanding and love. Because of your support, I know I won't regret this. Thanks for being with me every step of the way, love. You light up my life =).

Be my Baby,
I'll look after you.

I am counting down the days.

2008-08-19T23:35:00.000-07:00

Today, I stepped into Wal-Mart for the 1st time. Humongous it is, well-stocked with virtually everything you ask for, at cheap prices. Bought nearly 100 bucks worth of groceries and cutlery and what-nots.

Miami and Orlando have been fun, pictures up on facebook already! I have officially conquered loop-de-loop rollar coasters, free falls, deep-sea snorkelling, parasailing;
met Mickey & Friends, encountered slight racism and random assumptions of us being Japanese girls;
been asked why we're not in our home country watching Olympics;
taught lindy, kailing the Minah way of saying Makan Ba**, & Kena-k ___ la sial --> courtesy to 2 months in ICC listening to Blues and Darren converse;
been irritated at complexities of different interests and personalities amongst people;
miss home and suffered cracked heels; desensitised to plane trips

Had fun, but I keep having the feeeling that this is gonna end, and imma head home to my lovelies soon.

2008-07-31T10:51:00.001-07:00

Bumming around watching online streaming Japanese serials, pretty awesome actually.

I've had enough of sudden funerals. I don't want to take to such news anymore, or having to make a trip down with family for them. But more will come, ironically morbid.

I miss my Dad and his rare solemn nags, that constant need to make himself a cuppa every half hour or so, that shuffling of feet while making his way to the bathroom, the hearty guffaws when he's in a cheery mood.

I miss Kenn and that silly grin, that familiar muffled laughter, those crinkles around his eyes when he smiles, that safe comfort space in his arms that I have always longed to feel right in, and those kisses.

Suddenly, I don't feel like flying off and leaving my lovelies behind for 5 months anymore.

2008-07-23T11:56:00.001-07:00

如果没有你 - 莫文蔚

This song is awesome. By Karen Mok

2008-07-18T08:01:00.000-07:00

packing, unpacking, packing, unpacking

MOVING HOUSE IS TIRING.

The novelty is slowly wearing off, slowly seeping away.

2008-07-16T18:48:00.000-07:00

Today I woke up feeling strangely disheartened.

But I know I shouldn't. Because it will never make any sense, now or ever.

2008-07-16T08:23:00.000-07:00

Today was spent washing dishes that were to be packed into cardboard boxes, a trip to the bank, more packing, sitting on the back of a lorry and having fun with wind in my hair, and supper at Coffee Club with Kenn. Life ain't all that bad, except for my mum's constant shrill nagging. Makes my ear drums ring violently, my head pound at exponential speed. Hmmm.

SHIN KUSHINYA

2008-07-15T09:50:00.000-07:00

I love Xiwei, Cyn, Farand for making this evening so special! It'd would have been better if Kenn were around though.

We headed down to Shin Kushinya at Suntec for good ole' authentic Japanese food. I think I died and went to heaven a million times in the midst of savouring and chewing on the lovely grilled delicacies. Hot Sake was fantastic, made me feel warm and fuzzy. Definitely hit the spot when it trailed down my gut and settled nicely in my tummy. Mmm. Salads were superb! I never knew fresh, crisp vegetables like carrot and cucumber sticks could taste so crunchy and sweet. The other salad with fried garlic, bacon, and Eastern Japanese dressing, was to die for. Each bite of the veggies was too refreshing! Before we even scrapped up the last bit of greens, cold, lightly-poached egg was served in a clear bonito broth. Different from the normal YaKun soft-boiled egg with soya sauce, this dish was pleasantly light, and left me craving for more. Slurping this up with a cute wooden spoon definitely made me a very happy girl.

Soft Shell Crab Roll was recommended by the staff in the menu Wei prepared (so touched!), but we all agreed that the other items on the list outshone this. The Sashimi of yellowtail, tuna, swordfish, fresh prawns, salmon, were orgasmic, please! Each slice of sweet meat was freshness beyond belief. We all had our share of tearing when the shiok searing wasabi flared up our nostrils. Sashimi, a must try, and it satisfied my month-long craving of raw fish! =)

Next came a plate of grilled mushrooms, pork wrapped in mozzarella cheese, pock neck in mustard sauce, chicken with tako-wasbi (sweet octopus in wasabi, drizzled on a stick of grilled marinated chicken). Each item had its own unique taste and texture. Cyn baby and I went crazy over the shiitake mushrooms! Never have grilled mushrooms tasted so delightful, so chewy, so delectable. Must try, please! The golden mushrooms wrapped with thinly-sliced pork was the right size, and not too chewy! They slid down my throat nicely after a couple of bites, and the savoury marinate on the pork was oh-so heavenly. Flat noodles/soba served with duck broth dip made Cyn and I go high. I have never tasted cold noodles this awesome. The salty, thick and creamy broth with spring onions and a right amount of crunchy radish accentuated the soba noodles brilliantly =).

Matcha ice-cream was a definite replica of my favorite Starbucks' green tea Frappucino, in a much creamier form. A single scoop of that was just right for me, and the red beans accompanying it added a different texture to the sweet, aromatic ice-cream. Farand and Wei had Goma(seseme) ice-cream, which tasted wonderful, just like a creamier, colder version of a bowl of Hong Kong's sesame paste. Fragant, it was! Thank you, Wei, for allowing me to have a personalised menu to take away with! You guys are so sweet!

Starbucks came next, and we bummed around laughing and chilling out, with stories about mutual friends, and reminiscing about our younger days. I haven't laughed so hard in ages, and Farand claimed his cheeks actually hurt during the ride home. Thank you, Far, Cyn and Wei for a fantabulous evening! A great end to a day/night filled with much laughter, satisfied stomachs, healthy scrumptious food, uplifting spirits, and crazy singing of oldies.

I LOVE YOU GUYS! =))

2008-07-14T06:08:00.000-07:00

Today, marks the auspicious date for one's moving into a new house. My mum's excitement to conduct rituals was quite suffocating. She insisted that fruits and joss sticks be placed on red paper right smack at the doorway, while she muttered prayers for certain deities to bless the house and our family members who will reside in here. I observed silently as she shouted "FENG SHAN SHUI QI!" and "FA AH!" (otherwise known as HUAT AH!), as she paraded in and out of our bedrooms with joss sticks. I was banned and had unnerving stares shot at me when I ACCIDENTALLY exploded with fits of "oh my god!","oh shit" and what the Mother terms as "annoying questions". And as part of this ritual, both of us have to stay overnight, and have a homecooked meal in our new apartment. Blk 219B, Bedok Central. Address seemingly much shorter than my current house's hmm.

Thank god for my sister's ingenuity to bring me my laptop, that I can secretly (ok, not that secretly) tap into an unknown stranger's wireless network, and stab Boredom in the eye by Youtubing Secret by Jay Chou, and of course, blogging. *smirk*

Watched Red Cliff with Kenn yesterday, and I must say, the Generals were made out to be such awesome and delicious heroes. I got very excited when each of them stepped out valiantly on horses and alone in each fighting scene, having to fend off inuandation of infantry soldiers by themselves. I loved how these 3 generals under Liu Bei's command were oh-so loyal, and how each of them were carved out to be gentle yet brave, attached with an aggressive fighting spirit, despite staring defeat in the face at Cao Cao's crazy fleets of ships and tens of thousands of soldiers. The war strategies by ZhuGe Liang, played by Takeshi, were too cool. I now have a sudden interest in Chinese history hur hur. Takeshi was hilarious and cute in the movie, please! Girls, even if you have absolutely no interest in war movies, violence, or chinese history whatsoever, please watch Red Cliff for the A-list actors (especially Takeshi!). Lin Chiling, who was playing the role of Zhou Yu's virtuous, loving wife, was pretty redundant in the film. Her acting was quite pathetic, really. All she had to do was to look pretty, show off her sexy belly, act really sensual even when helping a horse give birth (what!?). And then suddenly (spoiler alert) the entire movie got me disappointed when I had the revelation that Cao Cao's war motive revolved around her.

I got a secret!

I secretly miss working at ICC...

cos' of the lovely people there! Here comes my list of ICC people I adore and will miss ever so much when I go overseas in 3 weeks time!

My crazy lovely friend, Cassie Baby! My my, She never ever fails to brighten the day when I'm working with her, especially with her silly dramatic antics like rubbing her tummy, and her random remarks! She is the only one like me who also closes the cash register using our tummies!! *guffaws* Oh-so adorable! I love her to bits and am missing her now! I'd love to have late night Uno and drinks again with you, babe =)

BLUE EYES! Ah Beng stunt biker! Object of desire of Blue Eyes Fan Club by girls far and wide!He and J made Bouncy Bouncy Smack Smack a song I will never forget. Looks really lethal and cold at first with em' piercing blue eyes, but that exterior melts away immediately when em' vulgarities and funny nonsense pours out of that mouth! He loves to talk to small girls in school uniforms, then boast about his extensive fan club! He gets soooo red, like me, after a sip of alcohol =)

FARAND CHEN! I never knew I could ever click with someone so readily, so crazily, so quickly within 1 working session. He is my GURLFRAN, my male self, and I swear we were somehow separated at birth. Fantastic, awesome boy whom I love to ask to drive me back home after work. His accent imitations are fabulous, and we share the same taste for lame-ass humour! Love ya tons, Gurlfran! You da man, you mah homie, ya dig? *thumps chest* ;)

Mr Jonathan Tan! Haha he told me he didn't like me last time cos' I was too friendly! But I forgive him cos' he is very adorable and loves to hang his BIRDIE at Bedok North with em' Ah Peks. I love talking nonsense with him at work haha. Jon, You still owe me teh tarik! Always talking about Muay Thai, and checking out hot girls with me. Together, Cyn, Gen, you and I will rule NTU!

Hui Fen, Mei Mei, Darren, Jeremy have all made working at ICC wonderful too! HF being the one whom I have to massage shoulders for after she works out too much at the gym. Mei Mei the one with cute lips, Darren the trash-talking Phang Sai, and Jeremy the one with random sexy dance moves for songs on the radio! Nicole, the pretty one who had to endure endless daunting questioning about her flowers from certain SUITORS, Luci the sexy girl, Stef the cute one who did the Yahoo Party with me, and sweet Jae =).

And And! my pretty Cynthia Baby whom I will miss so so so so much when I leave to the U.S. She has been the one whom I will call and complain to for gossip sessions, the one whom I hang out with at school, the one who always accompanies me to look for my belongings when lose em' at random places in school, and the one who has made me laugh oh-too many times. I love you, babe! I cannot wait for Tuesday!!

This is the end of my uber long post! Cheers, everyone! =)

2008-07-08T04:15:00.000-07:00

I melt when I get to hear a good male vocalist. Mmm. Jason Mraz is awesome, so is his bongo buddy/harmony back-up singer here. Listening to them makes me feel like prancing around the room. My mum's offering to pay whoever who wants to help clean my new house, and can stand her demanding instructions! I scrubbed the toilet bowl today, it ain't a good day.

I won't hesitate, no more, no more.

2008-07-03T08:45:00.000-07:00

I was feeling bored and like an insomniac, so I decided to browse through photos on my desktop and found the following for random viewing pleasures for one and all!

This was taken when our class met our mates for the first time in Year 1 Sem 1. Yes, we posed retardedly. I miss my class!

HAHAHAHAHA I dedicate this to Farand. Don't kill me, GurlFrannnn!

Posing artistically along Armenian Street with cousins!

We were told by my sis to look as if money was falling out of the sky!

And after that, I secretly wished I could fly.

My new room-to-be!

Pretty Lightings in the Living Room

My sister's new room-to-be

As you can see, I was busy prodding my cheeks, wishing I ain't got no fats there.

Back when my hair was long and when Kenn bought me a new phone! =) Cafe Bar at Parkway.

This was taken today when I was sleepy and dragged to my new house to serve as a maid.

Juliana the pretty half Siamese, half Persian cat with big blue googly eyes. She is actually really fat with triple chins, armed with a deceiving furry long tail that can slap your calf!

2008-07-03T05:39:00.000-07:00

Xiaxue and Dawn are in for some major catfight and probable impending lawsuits! Albeit personal opinions should be freely aired on blogs (with the exception of racism and government issues hmm), I think Xiaxue went a little too far with the defamatory comments. Oh well! The buzz will simmer away slowly, and soon no one will ever remember the deleted post's existence. Arissa Cheo is sizzlin' hot stuff! Zomg.

On sidetracking, I have pondered and conclude that,
I do not like being bossed around to do clean-ups.
I love hanging out with Missy Cassandra Ho.
I am excited to work with Missy Cynthia Ong, even if it's for a while.
I do not like to be treated as a blatant medium in eliminating one's boredom.

I am typing this while listening to Monica from F.R.I.E.N.D.S moan while Phoebe gives her a seemingly-orgasmic back rub/massage. Kinky stuff ;)

2008-06-30T08:07:00.000-07:00

These days, I'm getting irritated more and more easily. Sometimes I feel that I am made for something more. Or maybe my heart's just too small, or I'm taking things for granted, or I'm getting tired of what I'm doing, or I have a new-found heightened competitive/jealous streak, or maybe it's all of the above. I need to blame something, anything.

2008-06-28T18:19:00.000-07:00

Today, I was awakened at 6-ish in the morning because my Mama was, I believe, stoning in the living room, preparing to head to our new house in Bedok Central. For all who don't know it yet, I'll be moving to the bright pink and cream HDB flats next month. My lovely block in Bedok South has been eyed by our 'WONDERFUL' and 'CARING' government for an en-bloc. I think they assume that middle-class citizens like us do not deserve this serene, green, convenient environment, while rich-ass condominium-owning expatriates/businessmen/tai tais do. My Mama is frustrated by home renovations, but has proudly convinced herself that our next home location is awesome. Why?

1) It is heartlander-ish with cheap shops like Giant (for grocery shopping) and Bata:

2)Hawker centres are everywhere! With good food like laksa, fish slice soup..:

3) The Bedok Community library is minutes away from our new apartment:

4) Mr Bean Soya Cafe with awesome ice cream is right beside the huge 2-storey NTUC Fairprice, right smack in the middle of Bedok Central.

5) Gym, track and swimming pool just 5 minutes away from my new home. Fantastic!

6) Buses and MRT are readily available for everyone to travel from Bedok, to all other parts of Singapore. Perfect for those who do not drive, or are bogged down by fearful parents who do not think we are capable enough to drive on our own *grumble*:

Hence, I conclude that my new home in Bedok Central will be oh-so-convenient for Aunties everywhere! I hope the close proximity of the MRT track to my house will not be deafening at nights.

Oh a side-note, please visit Ice Cream Chefs at 520 East Coast Road, near VJ and St. Patrick's school for lip-smacking homemade ice creams from 1pm to 10pm any day! Satisfaction Guaranteed! We do parties as well, meaning we can pop over to any functions or parties and mix up fresh ice-cream for you on the spot. Choose a flavor of ice-cream (like Mrs Smith, Oreos & Cream, Cookie Dough, Horlicks, Durian Decadence, Chocolate & Hersheys) and personalise them with our wide range of top-notch mix-ins available (such as Caramalised Biscuits, Malteses, Hershey Chips, M&Ms, Waffle Crisps, Brownies, Kinder Bueno). Watch us blend your favorite mix-in into mouth-watering, refreshing ice cream on a Cold Stone. Perfect for cooling you down on a hot day! Regular cup of ice cream, stacked high, costs $3.10 and a large douple-scoop cup costs $4.80 with 2 flavours for you to choose from. Each mix-in costs only a mere 70Cents. 3 flavors can be mixed into a pint at $9.50, with an optional 1st mix-in of additional $2 and subsequent ones at only $1. So come on down and have your very own specialised ice cream, created perfectly just for you!

2008-06-28T10:33:00.000-07:00

Today, it was uber busy at the shop. The queue trailed to outside, the door was kept open, and it became oh so hot. Chris came by today when the shop closed (I'm sorry I didnt tell you our closing time!), and I got Farand (MS) to drive me home. Farand Chen I now trust that your driving skills are decent enough for me not to put on my seat belt! Hur Hur.

Today, Blue Eyes looks too pretty with his hair tied up, and snug in his cute red jacket. Cass and I have observed, that it is amazing how his TKGS fan club goes silent when he is not around in the shop, but together chirp loudly in flirtatious choruses upon setting their eyes on him! Awww teenage crushes!

Class Outing on Thursday was sweet. Sally, Krit, Jo, Pauline, Thaddeus, Jevon, Roach turned up, and we had many laughs reminiscing about the past in VJ! Pauline is now a bombshell! Thaddeus could not recognise her and introduced himself innocently as such: "Hi, I was your classmate during 1st 3 months *smiley hopeful face*!" I swore all of us went silent for a good 3 seconds before bursting out into hysterical laughter.

Today's a fine fine day indeed.

P.S Thank you Kenn Wong for your lovely company today, you never fail to brighten up my days =).

2008-06-27T08:32:00.000-07:00

i do not like being compared to, in a bad way, albeit it all being a joke.

I had fun with Kenn today =) Met tons of people at Plaza Sing and Raffles CIty Starbucks haha.

2008-06-25T10:18:00.000-07:00

Farand Chen is officially my if-im-bored-i-will-whine-to-you buddy. Stalker Farand, if you are reading this, you should be terribly honored.

I am pondering about politics and the workplace, about its existence in a shop that is mundane and little, along east coast. Oh! Jeff Wang popped by the shop today. His complexion is flawless, but his English pronunciation could be improved! Awesome stuff haha.

Today, Kenn's hot ex came by the shop, and I made affogato for her. Spiteful and jealous I felt, albeit childish, cos' she is just too pretty. I couldnt help making comparisons. Michelle, Shaun Toh, Daryl, Alex, David, Chen Chung, Joshua came by too, and made work a little brighter and happier.

2008-06-19T18:02:00.000-07:00

For the 1st time in a month, I woke up at 7am to go for a morning jog. There has been much debate over whether going for an early exercise is more efficient/healthier as compared to having one in the evening. Lately I have been too darn sleepy and lazy to wake up early to exercise, and so I've taken to doing jogs in evenings. My findings:

Either my stamina has decreased by the size of an asteroid, or my brain was hollering for me to stop and save my yet-to-be-awoken bodily muscles from much strain. I went out of breath after 6 rounds this morning, as compared to being able to jog even after 10 rounds in evenings. Hmm.

These few nights I've been unable to sleep well. I do not comprehend why.

I am excited that Kkor, Cyn, Lau, Alex, Nickles, Carol are alllll heading to Marketing for our 2nd year! I love this buncha people.

I cannot wait to spend time with Kenn Wong this weekend! I love you, baby!

2008-06-10T22:20:00.000-07:00

I was annoyed yesterday because Kenn didn't make an attempt to talk to me even though I tried to.

Jon, Farand, Cass, Blue Eyes and I shared our dislikes about the shop yesterday. Eye-opening, I would say.

Blogging is turning out to be mega boring. Today, I am assigned to mop and vacuum the floor at home. I am secretly a maid.

2008-06-07T20:21:00.000-07:00

I played Worms Armageddon with Kenn yesterday and the game announced 4 out of 5 times that I am a boring worm. Annoying! I am so not boring.

On another note, working at Ice Cream Chefs has been very fun, and most of the people there are uber friendly. I am sad that I have to quit soon though.

Hmmm. I seem to take you for granted lately. I shall curb that so it wouldnt hurt as much if we end up not together some day.

The air is smelly. I think the neighbours are using cheaper incense paper to burn today.

2008-05-23T05:36:00.001-07:00

shit i am damn it scared for my results. I don't want to know them arghhhh.

2008-04-29T20:27:00.001-07:00

oooh i was reading my past post and realised how the latest one sounded like how an Ah Lian would blog about her mundane life. haha. But I don't care! I blame it on the scorching weather. Global Warming will annihilate the human race!

2008-04-29T20:09:00.000-07:00

Argh the weather these days is inexplicably HOT!!
Yesterday Cyn and I had a wonderful time bumming around starbucks and reading our books for a good 2 plus hours, before vainpot Alex decided to join us for dinner/dessert session. In 10 minutes at Suntec Starbucks, I caught sight of 2 celebrities, one of whom used to host Gotcha! 2 decades ago haha. But the baristas arent as friendly and warm as Siglap's, maybe cos' the latter's, unlike the former, is small and cosy, filled with mostly regulars. It was a nonsensical evening filled with much laughter, and a hurried embarrassed attempt zooming into Raffles City STarbucks, grabbing them free serviets for my poor leaky nose, and getting the hell outta there!

Today Jie, Mum and I headed down to ICA to apply for new passports. I am positively peeved at how they are so strict with the passport-sized photos! The fringe cannot cover your eyebrows, no shine on your cheeks, curl back both sides of ur hair behind ur ears, blah blah. I look like a freaking Ah Tiong in my new photo, which is staying put in my new biometric passport for the next 10 yrs of my life! SO annoying! The application process is now self-serviced because of the biometric system hype shit, and so we settled our application and dumped them into them application boxes thingy within half an hour! Awesomee.

My poor mum seemed so zoinked out today, she kept making wrong turns, and ultimately and unknowingly drove us into 2 ERP gantries which sliced 6 bucks off our Cashcard. THE HORROR. And in all damnation, we had to make an uber big detour just to get to ICA tsk tsk. So on the return trip home, I offered to drive because my sis is too scared to drive an auto car!!

See la see la learn manual car laaaa!

haha! nahhh we will force her to drive us around in our magnificient champagne Nissan auto car soooon. I still love u, Jie!
hokays back to my lovely boooook!

Look after You - The Fray

2008-04-22T08:29:00.000-07:00

If I don’t say this now I will surely break,
As I’m leaving the one I want to take.
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait.
My heart has started to separate.

Oh, oh,
Be my baby.
Oohh.
Oh, oh,
Be my baby.
I’ll look after you.

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go.
Will you won't you, be the one I'll always know?
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around.
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down.

Oh, oh,
Be my baby.
Oohh.
Oh, oh,
Be my baby.
I’ll look after you.
And I'll look after you.

"If ever there was a doubt,"
My love she leans into me.
"This most assuredly counts."
She says most assuredly.

Oh, oh,
Be my baby.
I'll look after you.
After you.
Oh, oh,
Be my baby.
Oohh...

It’s always have and never hold.
You’ve begun to feel like home.
What’s mine is yours to leave or take.
What’s mine is yours to make your own.

Mmm the song grows on you =)

2008-04-19T07:47:00.000-07:00

i love kenn wong for accompanying me home today!

2008-04-17T06:18:00.000-07:00

today was.. a flop.
a flop in its entirety, and i see futility blazened across the upcoming week, but my conscience does not allow me to slacken. I do not comprehend.

Today at Starbucks, I realise a few baristas now recognise me. In return I fund their salaries and wages. It's all a vicious cycle of demand and supply.

I am tired. and I crave running or somewhat of a tan the week after. Kenn is in the forest without food cos' he chooses quality over quantity. He does not know the meaning of Karma. tsk tsk.