Posted on: Friday, August 28, 2009
Posted at: 9:00 AM
Kenn is on a lucky streak this month! I hope to get to play with the DSLR. :)
Xiao Hei Hei is a palm-sized black kitty! Frisky adorable little thing with no Mama, and eyes that make anyone go AWWWWW! Buncha girls found her at my estate.
Today, Cyn and I chatted a little bit about relationship issues on the way home, while a goth-lookalike stole glances at us. Sure, an indication of progression and direction is reassuring. However, does the absence of it signal the time to end a relationship, or should both parties wait it out, just a little longer? And what if a little longer, is seemingly an excuse to avoid the real question at hand, and 'a little longer' drags on to months, then years?
This is real, and it's making me ponder. I decided a long time ago to give Kenn and I 5 years maximum before we pause to talk about where we're headed towards. That is, of course, we do somehow manage to pull through to another 2-ish years. 5 years may be the saturation point, the deciding factor whether to stay for progression, or walk away from each other amicably. At the back of my mind, I hope he is the one, because I've gotten far too comfortable and familiar with the current situation. And yet, I restrain the urge to delve deeper and imagine the 'Could Haves" with the boy. I, of all people, know the dangers of hopes and expectations climbing too high, creating a bubble too perfect.
I am now leaving it to Fate.