Posted on: Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Posted at: 7:21 AM
Is 6 bucks an hr very low? haha. Maybe I'm not asking for much. But oh well. It's for the experience I guess. Got a customer service job at United Premas. Starting on the 11th haha.
Posted on: Friday, December 01, 2006
Posted at: 5:40 PM
Ack. Didn't get the job at UPS. Wonder why. Hmm. Going for another one at chai chee as some customer service person. Didn't go for Les Miserables last night. Kenn and I gave up our tickets to Daryl and Jas. He'd better be bold enough to go after her after our tiresome matchmaking!!! haha. And I didnt feel like going cos' someone was the lead singer. haa. WOuld have loved to catch the rest of choir juniors in action and having fun though. Hope I can make it for carolling. =)
So, Keewen and I wandered off to Cathay and spontaneously decided to catch Flags of our Fathers. It was okay. Not fantabulous.
Oh.
What does it mean when a boy suddenly spurts out a gurl's name... one whom he used to have a thing for... and when questioned, quickly brushed it aside? It bothered me though, even when he reassured that it was nothing. And I got the funniest feeling inside. Maybe I'm paranoid. Then again, maybe I'm not. Just felt confused and bummed out throughout the entire movie, and on the lonely train ride back. Crawled into bed, Couldn't sleep properly. All sorts of memories, thoughts, emotions, and subsequent tears, all meshed up and entangled together, just oozed out as I tossed and turned in bed. Started asking myself and God if I'm not good enough to be properly loved by a nice boy in this world. People say heartbreaks make one grow, learn. Somehow the heartbreak with whats-his-name probably made me ever more paranoid and insecure. Im gonna drive myself crazy someday. Ooof. Then.. I fell asleep.
Woke up at 4.20am and saw Bev's msg. Worried for her. Shes not replying me. I feel like I need to get drunk. Couldnt get back to sleep. Contemplated getting out of bed and vacuuming the floor. Hey, it's once in a lifetime that I get such rigour to wanna vacuum the floor. Figured my mama would be proud of me! haha. SHe tried interrogating me last night when she caught me tearing and staring out of the kitchen window. Oh wells. I might be going crazy. Put on my specs, circled my room, and realised this was absurd. haha. Was successful in going back to slp till about 6.30am when my mama woke up for her usual morning jogging routine. Scrambled outta bed when she left the house and whipped up eggs in toast and Liang Cha for... well... keewen. Amazing how I delivered it to his house, came home, went rollarblading, all in 2 hours and my mama didn't come home. Yet. haha.
Think by now, the toast wld be cold and soggy. Oh well. Up to him to have it or throw away I guess. It might not be that nice. haha. Mmm. My heart's heavy. Can't get my mind off that scene where he blurted out Joyce's name abruptly and I just... well... stared at him. Mmm. If I were more cynical, I would have said he practically burst out into song and rhapsody, and then turned a lil' cold to me for a while when I asked him again and again what that meant. Gonna go out with my mum soon. I'd probably come home to vacuum the floor and all when I'm done. I need to keep myself busy. I just need to. haha. Mmm. Gary's having some love problems of his own. Gurl doesnt deserve Gary I think. He deserves more. Okie dokes. I gotta go bathe haha.