Quotes.
Posted on: Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Posted at: 4:42 PM
Love is like war, Easy to begin but hard to end.
~ by Anonymous ~
I have loved to the point of madness; That which is called madness, That which to me, Is the only sensible way to love. ~ by F. Sagan ~
If I could have just one wish,I would wish to wake up everydayto the sound of your breath on my neck,the warmth of your lips on my cheek,the touch of your fingers on my skin,and the feel of your heart beating with mine...Knowing that I could never find that feelingwith anyone other than you.- Courtney Kuchta -
Feeling nostalgic this morning. COuldn't sleep well. Give up on you I shall. Because To love you, is to unselfishly let you go, no matter how much it cuts, and smuts, and stings inside. I will probaly never.. Be With You again. Sarang hae-yo.
Posted on: Monday, August 28, 2006
Posted at: 2:35 AM
I hope i pass my gp. yes. SIGH. Jojo wanted to haf a look at my blog. Didn't give it to her though. Jon Gan!! u should be honoured. haha. =)
I conclude that I'm a boring person. Irvin and Roach both claim that they're boring people but they are evidently not!! Irvin has lots of ideas, thoughts. Always manage to crack me up... like Jon Gan does =). Roach's witty with her comments. Hilarious most of the time. JieJun and Merv together... they can be so silly at times, I laugh at them. Have I mentioned how sweet they are to each other? It's the little things they do for each other that makes me envy them alot.
Take for example, he knows she absolutely adoressss French Toast. He woke up early in the morning to make some for her for breakfast just the other day. Specially brewed ginseng tea for both of them to share as well. Held hands as they study, laugh till they cry when caught up in their own little private jokes (and world). He travels all the way to Bedok to study with her, and takes a (almost) 2 hr journey back home. SHe travels all the way to Marina Square to study with him so he doesnt have to travel that long. "Heart pain," she says. It's sweet how friends become lovers... so innocently... so... unexpectedly.
Jojo just asked herself... would she ever fall in love again. Claims that there's no boy around worth loving/ liking. Haa. When did she become such a cynic? Told her she's gonna find one... but before she confirms it, he's gotta go through me!!! haha. DUn wanna see her get hurt again. *nods slowly* I think everything happens for a reason... Happens cos' of a simple, yet somehow complex thing called fate. Amazing how people meet.. intriguing how fate and destiny manage to intertwine lives so easily. This will be an entire new discussion altogether. =)
Oh yes!! I digressed. What was I saying?... *taps the keyboard and ponders* Oh right!! my conclusion that I'm an extremely boring person. SIgh. Kinda pity my future spouse next time. Just thinking about my future... Hmm. Would I, someday, be :
(1)Fat, Wrinkly and Ugly. Dressed in a pair of oversized, grandmama-like pajammies. Plonking myself heavily down on the big cushiony sofa in front of the TV set, in the evening. Munching on chips filled with saturated fat, eyes glazed over. Staring into nothingness as I wait for my husband to return home... (late at night). *cocks eyebrows before dissolving into a puddle of sighs*
Or would I be:
(2) Sexy, elegant, and hot. Scouting clubs blarring loud R&B music on the streets late at night with my girlfriends. Single, Available, Flirty. And after having my night of fun, burst into my plush, black apartment and konk out on my sleek, leather sofa, in front of my 50-inch plasma TV. Rich and an independent woman, holding my future (and hoards of cash) in my own powerful hands.
Hmm... tempting.
OR... would I be:
(3) A loving mother of 3 (or 2). Living in a private estate, dressed in my apron during one evening, standing in front of my dining table, and being very pleased with myself for preparing a sumptuous dinner for my family of 5 (or 4). Freshen up I shall, and welcome my tired but happy hubby home from work with a generous hug, and a loving peck on the lips. He'll undo his tie, we'll call our kids down from their rooms, talk about our days, and enjoy our delightful evening plesantly.
Haha. Guess I wouldnt wanna be the fat wrinkly woman with a husband who commits adultery while I silently await his return... from... The Vixen. Neither do I wanna be rich but single (and slutty). I like the housewife and happy family idea. Very... me. =) I like to be loved. haha. Who doesnt? These are just daydreams though. Randomness.
Oops. I digressed again from my intial topic (remember? about me being boring?). Ack. My train of thought gets... well.. interrupted all the time.
Argh I hope I dun fail my gp. ACK!!
DIGRESSION... YET AGAIN! *stabs my chest*
I'll learn to be funnn. Like what joshua used to ramble on about how fun lynette can be. I hope I'll be mentally-stimulating by then. He claims I'm not. Gah. I shall go running to clear my jumbled-up thoughts. Till next time... Au Revoir!
Why do I still miss you so? WHen will I get over you? WHen will I stop loving you? God give me an answer.
Posted on: Saturday, August 26, 2006
Posted at: 2:17 AM
I wonder...
The silence of the night is deafening.
I'm still used to staying up,
Awaiting your call.
When will it get through to me that you ain't mine no more.
Is it whenever I see you 2 together?
Sitting close next to each other?
Will there ever be a day when you'll hold my hand again?
Let me watch you sleep,
While you hold on to my finger?
Will there ever be a day when we'll walk down the beach together?
Smile at each other,
Loving one another?
Will there ever be a day when you make me feel safe again?
Hold me close,
Let me rest on your shoulder?
Will there be a day when you'll come running to me again?
Say you love me,
Promise you won't let me go again?
WIll there ever be a day when I'm the only girl in your heart?
Is it too much to ask?
Will you come back for me like you said you would?
And if you do, would I still love you?
I don't wanna let you go.
Still loving you,
Still missing you.
WIll there ever be a day when we hold hands again in the bus?
Listening to your mp3,
Letting me stroke your arm?
I'm only truly happy when I'm with you.
And I wonder if you still feel the same way I do.
Don't make me wait for too long,
Though my love for you will seem to last...
for a long, long time.
Only you and I know what we've been through.
Do you still lay in bed at night,
And think of us,
like you used to?
You're still the only one who's always on my mind,
The only one who smiles at me in my dreams,
The only one whom I see the moment I open my eyes.
I still love you.
Posted on: Thursday, August 10, 2006
Posted at: 5:22 AM
It's funny how things are able to move on so very fast. Or rather, how life works in ways so formidable, it just compels you to move on rapidly to achieve other goals, dreams, targets. I don't have the time to think about him now. Which is good I guess. But I miss having the time and energy to sit down quietly, and reflect, think about stuff. Sadly, exams coming up now. I want to walk along a deserted beach, or sit by the breakwaters. Stare out into the open sea. And, think. Think about... Everything. Oh well. =)
Went for tuition at ROach's house at 11am. Abit pissed at our tutor. Grrr. Then went to meet Wan Wan at Tampines Starbucks and attempted to do some work. Showed him where Bedok Library was after that... met up with JJ and MErvyn... Then we split up and headed for yet another tuition with JJ. BUsy BUsy. I'm ever so thankful for Jiejun and Irvin this past week. They've been my pillar of strength, even if they dun know it. Thank you guys for hearing me rattle and ramble on and on... Thank you for letting me go all drama and high Jiejun and merv... And for letting me hang out with u 2 lovey-dovies. Thanks Irvin for accompanying me... and scolding me. HAHA. U're wonderful and I assure you!! U'd find Mrs. Wan veh soon haha. =)
OKie dokes. Gotta go now. Au Revoir.
Posted on: Monday, August 07, 2006
Posted at: 6:45 AM
The Five Love Languages
My primary love languages are probably
Acts of Service and
Quality Time.
Complete set of results
Acts of Service: | | 9 |
Quality Time: | | 9 |
Physical Touch: | | 5 |
Words of Affirmation: | | 4 |
Receiving Gifts: | | 3 |
Information
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.
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Jiayou Rachel!
Posted on: Friday, August 04, 2006
Posted at: 7:33 PM
Time to give up. We're probably not meant to be. yupp. Hard though. But im gonna try my best. =) Think I love him more than he loves me. Oh well. As long as he's happy. Mm. Prelims and A's... arghhhhhh. I ain't gonna cry at night no more. I promised Jiejun and myself and irvin and him that I won't cry anymore. Independent womannnn! haha.
Take care of yourself though.
Go ace your promos and opera competition.
Keep on smiling.
Be strong.
Don't skip any meals.
Go be one famous pop star.
I'll be here silently praying and supporting you.
May you meet someone new, and learn to love and treat her well.
Thank you for being around for 4 months,
And lighting up my life.
"It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday."
To you.
Posted on: Thursday, August 03, 2006
Posted at: 8:19 AM
I miss you.
So very very much.
It's so hard to live without you.
Every literal second, you pop into my mind.
Is it mutual?
Have you given up?
I haven't.
I'm waiting.
I don't know what I'm waiting for, but I'm still waiting.
For an answer, a decision.
I saw you twice today.
It was almost impossible to turn around and walk away.
DO you want us to move on?
Go on our separate ways?
I haven't cried like these in ages.
To hold the tears back when I'm dragging my feet across the cement floor, in the library, at tuition, in the toilet,
Only to let them flow freely in the comfort of my own room.
Curled up into a ball, missing you.
I'm lost.
SO very lost.
Yearn to see you smile back at me.
Wanna look you up so badly.
But I can't. We can't.
So, I'm leaving everything to fate now.
If we're meant to be,
If what we have is strong and true enough to overcome anything,
I'll see you again, mister.
But when will that day come?
Will it even arrive?
And if it never comes,
Can you teach me to un-love you?
Give me the strength to go on.
I wanna just fade away,
Fade away into nothing but a memory.
But I can't.
All I can do,
Is hide under the covers,
WIshing this were a dream.
And when I wake up from a wet pillow,
I find you still with me.
Why did I fall so deep.
Give me an answer.