Posted on: Sunday, September 28, 2008
Posted at: 5:20 PM
Today, I have spent the whole day at Moonstruck again. It is now and forever, my favorite people-watching/studying/stoning/coffee-loving place in Urbana-Champaign.
Dearest Farand's 'last' day at work today and i heard from Jonnie he got wasted! But I Skyped him and he looked perfectly alright! Wish I could be there to join in the awesome, crazy fun! How I miss Cass, Cyn, Blues, Darren, Far, Jonnie.
Sis and cousins went to F1 racing. Am uber happy that they all seem to be having the time of their lives, but there's this nagging soreness jabbing at my heart, screaming and highlighting my absence from Singapore.
I remember my Daddy asking me if I could convert my degree to an overseas one, and he claimed that he has the financial ability to fund my education. Albeit job opportunities abroad are abundant and full of awesome prospects compared to teeny tiny Singapore, I have
zilch courage to be away from all my lovelies for a good 3-4 years. I fear my loves forgetting and moving on with their lives without me, fear change in itself, fear the loss of familiarity, fear risks. All these basically robbed me of any chances to be a
high-flyer (like so many here, vying desperately to grab abit of that delicious juicy pie), because I adore simplicity.
To wake up in the morning and know my family will be somewhere in my new house during the weekends,
To know the weather will be non-erratic for forever in Singapore,
To be able to drop by my favorite ice cream shop any time, any day, any moment,
To hold Kenn's hands and hear his voice whenever I yearn to,
To grab coffees and
tete-a-tete sessions with Cyn, Wei, Farand,
To feel sane in dealing with and basking in real, genuine, non-backstabbing/manipulative relationships with my lovelies...
If only the scenery in Singapore were like that of Urbana's, then life, would be perfect.
However the case, I do not regret coming over to U of I, where i know I've made friends with amazing people like Kailing, who is my new-found bestie here. The sweetest thing/wifey who somehow randomly spouts the same responses/nonsense as I do, the lady who has the most wonderful heart ever. Zhen Hao, whom I am oh-so grateful to, when I'm in need of a ride at night, need someone to complain to about my rough days, and for making my sore throat better with teas. I heart all you guys! =)
