Posted on: Monday, October 20, 2008
Posted at: 2:06 PM
Today I spent an hour trying to log onto wireless internet at Moonstruck, and am feeling particularly annoyed.
Currently hooked onto the song Single by New Kids on the Block & Ne-yo! They are awesome in the music video *swoons*.
Now, it looks gloomy outside. Please don't let it rain, or Imma be a wet duck flopping around in cold.
Yesterday, Bestie and I were/are disappointed and heartbroken by the people around us. Illinois is making my heart harden. Okay, not Illinois. Just...
people. In the beginning, I couldn't fathom why
people can be full of complexities, so multi-
faceted, so... repulsive. I'm smirking at the cafe, and concluding that that's the way life is. Fate probably has some way of hitting me in the head to wake me up, to remind me not be so giving to anyone, everyone, anymore. Bestie and I are too tired of disappointments.
2 girls in front of me, giggling about their boyfriends and thinking aloud about marriages for the past 2 hours, and how Genesis, God, play a part & what not. Part of me's shaking my head and scoffing at their disillusionment about getting married early, not having enough money, them being giddy, head over heels in love with their boyfriends. Being together with your boy for 2 years
does not mean it's more than enough dating time = perfect timing to get married.
Oh my, when did I become a cynic.
I think, in a time not too long ago, I still believed in romance, flowers, marriage, happiness, flying cupid hearts. Well, Kailing and JJ still made me believe sweet, giddy love still exists =). I am happy with Kenn, but we arent as mushy, lovey-dovey as Bestie and her boy, or Cyn and Wei.
I can't wait to go home. Still. After 2 months. I want to be able to be nice and giving, and loving to all my friends and family like I'm used to, and not get smacked in the face by ugly sights & to be used by people.
Oh well. Shopping for people earlier just made me a wee bit happier. =)
